1. Emerald
2. Cinders
3. Background Music
4. Mercury
5. Clockwork
6. The Naysayers
7. Source
8. Rescued
9. Him
10. Last Days
11. Prima Materia
12. Phoenix
13. Only Me
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Grey's debut, To Ever Be Made Whole follows one soul's alchemical path toward inner understanding, change and acceptance. According to grey, "'To Ever Be Made Whole' was inspired by the inner processes required of medieval alchemists to achieve their goals as spiritual proto-chemists. The idea of altering lead into gold takes on a higher level of symbolism and purpose when dealing with the self. Most of the problems I encountered in life - including my anxiety toward producing and releasing music - stem from deep-rooted definitions about myself and the patterns such foundations create over many years. Each song in this recording relates to steps of traditional alchemical practices as I both cathartically expose and delicately heal the wounds that have denied my emotional and spiritual evolution." Infused with melodic piano phrases and dreamy synthesized backgrounds, grey presents a textured sonic journey throughout the thirteen tracks of his first album. Closely examining and subsequently breaking down the ego in "Cinders", the singer digs deeply to present a mixture of lyrically raw and metaphorical analyses of negative life events and beliefs. "Background Music" and "Mercury" explore both the power associated with thoughts of inferiority as well as the powerfully negative effects that result from adhering to them. In "Clockwork", patterns of destructive and self-sabotaging behaviors are viewed amidst an undercurrent of Greek mythological motifs. "The Naysayers" playfully relays the musician's fears of and efforts to overcome the cynical criticisms often launched towards anyone expressing their deepest selves through art. Next, a haunting instrumental leads into "Source", which follows the birthing and process of addiction in the voice of the catalyst itself. "Rescued" serves as an honest and apologetic letter to previous loves, followed by the ethereally melancholic representation of depression offered by "Him". Grey's regret for his inability to handle his father's terminal illness - to whom the album is dedicated - is the central focus of the intricate and orchestral "Last Days". Preceded by a dreamlike instrumental is "Phoenix". Composed almost entirely of lyrics related to alchemical symbolism alongside an increasingly powerful chorus, the song acts as a culmination of the ideas explored and emotions pierced for the duration of the record. The much more stripped down "Only Me", in which the revelation that gold was hidden all along in the unconditional acceptance of the self is made, ends the expressive and intense journey. All songs written by grey Piano, synthesizers, drum kits: grey Recorded in Two Bedrooms and Two Closets, Tucson AZ Mastered by Steve Carrao at Sage Audio - Nashville TN Photography: Jamie Cieplinski and Clifford Daigler Copyright 2012 Jeremy Webb.